UNDERSTAND LOVE

I never thought the impact would be so big on Malaysia.. Reading comments and how they expressed their feelings on few pages, make me wonder.. Do these people really know Yasmin Ahmad? I never got the chance of meeting her. It was always one of my big dreams to work under her. And it comes to a conclusion that, we don't really need to know someone to see whether she has a pure heart or not. It will be clearly shown sooner or later. I always believe in one thing, if our intentions is true and pure, we don't need to go around and make sure everyone knows it. One day it will come back to you and you will be amaze that there are real people out there who feels related to you from your good work.. And Yasmin surely have been there..

I might be bias when i'm writing this, but as much bias as i can be, i just could not put aside the facts that, some people, they still don't know their religion well and yet they speak about it as if they are the Prophets.. I am still learning and try to understand my religion better.. And for that i know, the religion we're in now is too wide and too deep to understand in one night or even in lifetime..

I won't say much about all this religion matters but i do know that we always have to show respect to everybody and treat everyone equally. No matter what religion they believe in. No matter what races or colors they are. Because we are all the children of GOD.. And this is what Yasmin has been trying to show us all along her precious remarkable jobs..

What have i written previously about Yasmin Ahmad is something that truly comes from what i feel. The unnecessary things that people have been rumored around. And my response came from all that. Yes. We all love the truth. Who don't right? But there are some times that may come and we don't really need to hear the 'right' thing which totally is insignificant moreover when it involves families and someone who is gone.. I know it would crush big time if this happens to my family or any of my friends. And i know people who read this will say, "Owh its because you like Yasmin, so you say all dis.." or "The reason you are saying all this is because you are also 'not normal' like Yasmin.."

Yes.. I really like Yasmin. I love every piece of her work and also i love her as a human. As someone who put lots of efforts to bring people from all races together. For someone who showed us that things will be alright if we have so much love to give and there will be no reason to hate or fight.. And as for the 'not normal' part.. How many people really know Yasmin when she was a 'he'? How many people were there with Yasmin when she made the biggest decision in her life to be a she? How many people were there with Yasmin's parents and families when they listened to Yasmin decisions and then accepted her as who she is after that? Who really know what actually happened to Yasmin that made her to make that huge decision? NOBODY RIGHT?? Except for Yasmin's family and close friends.. I honestly don't know what really happened. All i can do is guess.. And how can i guess? Because more or less, im in that situation. People out there might judge me and say im 'not normal'. But really, who are they to say that to me? Do they really know me? Do they really know what is going on inside my body? Even my family don't know what im facing in my daily life.. It is so hard to make people understand. Especially people who don't have full faith in GOD. GOD can do and will do whatever HE wishes to do. Because HE's GOD.. And again it is between me and my GOD... And it is totally between Yasmin and her GOD.. We worship the same GOD. But we reach our GOD in our own way in our own form.. And for that it is totally unnecessary and unfair for people out there to take ALLAHs job and be the judge..

Be more human. Try not to think of peoples mistakes more than what they have bring good to us. Or else until forever we will only live in hate. People usually hate things that they don't understand. Things that is out of their reach frightens them. Therefore.. Read more.. And go between the lines when you need to.. Widen your eyes and look around.. Understand more.. And open your heart to more love.. Not hatred just because you don't understand why it is like this or why it was done like that..

I wish ALLAH give me more strenght and love in my heart. So that i would even love people who hates me.. Love really can heal the world.. And thank you so much 'Kak Yasmin' 'Mak' 'Guru' for teaching me that.. For leaving your legacy full of LOVE in it.. Thank You so much..


AsmidarShahrizal..

WHAT HAVE I SAID ON 'HAVE WE MISSED THE PLOT?' PAGE..

Im a malay. I come from Terengganu where most of the rural people come from. I read the Holy Quran. I learn agama. And i love my GOD and HIS RASUL. And im not 'Straight'. But i like to think of myself as sumone who is unique and special in my own form. Bcos i believe in GOD. And i do believe Yasmin is truly a Godsend. Yasmin was not only a creative person. She was not only a transgendered. But she was also a daughter. A sister. An aunty. And she was also a 'MAK' to the younger people who knows her along her lifetime..

I was there when the Imam recite the Talkin. I was nervous and a bit worry wondering bout wut name the Imam will summoned during the Talkin. Alhamdulillah.. When the Imam summoned her name so dat she is prepared to meet ALLAH and the two malaikat, the Imam summoned her as YASMIN BINTI ENUM.. And. Subhannallah.. Maha Suci ALLAH.. My whole body trembles hearing dat..

Do u kno how much it means when u die as a transgendered and u are being accepted as a woman in front of ALLAH?? Do u kno how it feels when u had to make a huge decisions and ur parents accepted u juz the way u are and love u and treat u like no difference from the other child? And it clearly shows how Mak Enum and Pak Uda love Yasmin so much, when after few minutes the Imam recites the Talkin, Mak Enum passed out until the ceremony over. Everybody there burst in tears looking at the love Mak Enum have fer her daughter. When the parents accepted who she is. And love her like she was born as a woman...

Then who the hell are we to be the judge and say another story bout Yasmin Ahmad? Clearly dis people in KOSMO do not belajar agama. Bukankah ALLAH pernah berfirman, "Kalau kau bukak satu aib orang ketika orang itu masih hidup, AKU akan buka 10 aib kau di padang masyhar di hadapan seluruh manusia yang sedang berhimpun menunggu giliran mereka." Dan apetah lagi kalau kite bukak aib orang yang sudah meninggal.. NAUZUBILLAH...!!

Kalau ade orang KOSMO bace ape yang saye tulis ni.. Saya mintak department KOSMO dapatkan seorang Ustaz untuk mengajar agama bermula dari asas.. Tak boleh hari hari pon takpe, sekali seminggu ustaz tu datang pun cukuplah.. 'People like me' who is different from others maybe dipandang sebagai tak layak untuk bercakap pasal agama.. But people yang normal dan 'Straight' macam orang orang KOSMO sepatutnya jadi lebih mulia.. Sekian..

-WASSALAM-

AsmidarShahrizal..

MY SHORT LETTER TO YASMIN AHMAD'S FACEBOOK JUST A DAY BEFORE SHE PASSED ON..

Assalamualaikum Kak Yasmin...

Actually i dunno how shud i address u as.. Kak Yasmin or Maam.. For i have so much and high respect for u.. I juz wanna tell u how panic i felt the day people called me n tell u passed away. Few minutes after u collapsed actually. I straight away burst in tears n i cried even though i was in a video shooting during dat time.. And not long after dat more news came in and i was so happy to kno dat the early info's was totally wrong! And u are still breathing fighting to live.. Again i cried and i thank ALLAH fer not taking u away yet. And i pray hard so ALLAH give u strength and help u survive all dis.. Kak Yasmin, i juz want u to kno dat u have been great inspirations to me. Ive grown up listening to your stories and success.. I am nobody. Im not sumone important at all. But u are the reason i have bigger dreams. I always wanna be sumone creative like u.. But i realize i can never be u. There will always be ONE YASMIN AHMAD. All i wanna say is, u are one of the of the most important person in my life.. People cried when MJ died. But i did not cry at all. But when i get the false news bout ur death, i broke down in tears.. It felt like i lost sumone in my family.. Get well soon.. Semoga ALLAH berikan segala RAHMAH-NYA buat Kak Yasmin. Semoga ALLAH pelihara dan melindungi Kak Yasmin dari segala penyakit dan segala perkara yang tidak baik.. Dan semoga ALLAH berikan Kak Yasmin kebahagiaan di dunia dan akhirat.. LOVE U SO MUCH KAK YASMIN!

*Jangan pernah berhenti dari terus berkarya..

Wassalam..

25th July 2009
03:05am

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And later that night, approximately around 11.25pm we were all shocked wif the news that our beloved Yasmin Ahmad has passed on.. I rushed to the hospital wif my good frens Hisham Albakri and Iz Sulaini. Sharp at 12 midnight, i am officially 26 years old. And there i was at the hospital reading Al-Fatihah as much as i can for the one and only Yasmin Ahmad..

Kak Yasmin.. You didnt leave us. You are still here in everyone hearts. You sumhow have touches us and make us feel near to you.. Tenanglah kau disana Kak Yasmin..~

-Ya ALLAH Ya Tuhanku. ALLAH yang Maha Pengasih, Maha Pengampun, Maha Melihat dan Maha Mengetahui. ALLAH yang Maha ESA yang tidak mampu diselindungkan dari apa jua kebenaran. Sesungguhnya ENGKAU telah melihat Ya ALLAH.. Dan sesungguhnya ENGKAU tahu akan setiap kejadian dan Ciptaan-MU.. Hamba-MU Yasmin telah pun kembali ke pangkuan-MU.. Peliharalah dia Ya ALLAH.. Tempatkanlah dia dikalangan orang orang yang beriman.. Sesungguhnya dia amat menyintai MU dan RASUL MU Ya ALLAH... Peliharalah maruahnya, dan lindungilah maruah keluarganya dari kata kata dan percakapan yang tidak perlu dari masyarakat disekeliling mereka Ya ALLAH... Berikanlah keluarganya kekuatan dan kesabaran yang tinggi.. Dan permudahkanlah perjalanan Yasmin didalam menemui-MU Ya ALLAH.. Sesungguhnya ENGKAU Maha Pencipta lagi Maha Menciptakan.. Setiap ciptaan-MU adalah SEMPURNA dan sesungguhnya ENGKAU lebih mengetahui Ya ALLAH Ya RabbulJalil.. Ya Rahman Ya Rahhim.. Ya Zaljalaliwaliqram..-

Amin-

AsmidarShahrizal..

SO??

So i stopped writing for the past 4 months. Sue me for that. Reason? Simply nothing. I just don't feel like writing anything. Been to many events and having a pretty happening fabulous life and outings almost every night, actually gives me a better reason to write or even put up lots of interesting pictures here. But i just don't do it. I find it quite lame. No offend to people who love doing that. But it is just not me.. I do sometimes write reviews and put up few pictures regarding the review I'm doing, but that is just it. Not more than that..


AsmidarShahrizal..